It's five minutes before 2 am now.

There are many things that I find incredible right now. One, I have never stayed up so late because I'd like to have enough energy to study the next day, and I tend to feel sleepy very quickly when I'm studying because it is incredibly boring. Two, it has been half a year since I last blogged. Three, I am actually blogging, and you have no idea how many times I've envisioned this in my head : Blogging about how A-levels have been, because it's over. (Okay not yet technically, but I count it as it has)

"...Maybe because I've made a resolution to study hard, and I want to keep to it. I will succeed in becoming a studious nerd this year. "

I hate to know how life is so fragile, but at the same time, the way God works always surprises me. I truly freaked out when I heard about Aloysius, I was so scared. Then again, in my fear and panic, I neglected how God was there protecting him and seeing him through all of that. It's like God cares about him so much more than any of us does, I don't know why I couldn't see it at that point. Actually I know why, I was too blinded by fear and worry (and I imagined the worst that could happen). I cannot imagine if the person getting hit was Angmian, Catherine, Bianche, or Vivian or anyone else for that matter. When I say I couldn't imagine, I really mean it. I can't even describe what my reactions would be.

Then when I went to the hospital to see him, all those fears dissipated instantly.

I'm so glad our God is so, so good. I cannot even put His goodness in words!

It's been almost two months since I last blogged, it's incredible. I'm only doing this for the sake of Angmian and Vivian Choy, if not they may skin me alive tomorrow.

I tend to lose interest in things rather quickly. Blogging has been something that I continued for quite a long time, and then I decided not to do it anymore. It's as if in many aspects of my life there needs to be variety and change if not I'll get tired of it. And this trait has stuck with me since I was very young?

I know I'm playing cheat but, see I updated! I'm going to sleep now :D

I know I should be sleeping now, considering that I've to be in church by eight tomorrow morning and I've to perform twice. But I need to blog, it's been (almost literally) eons since I've indulged in this. Can you believe, that I even consider blogging an indulgence? I'm quite amazed.

March common tests are over. I needed to say that. The Chinese Lit paper was the most awful thing ever, it's like drinking spoilt milk - okay forget it, I wanted to think of a proper metaphor for it but it's too late at night to bother. I will not waste my time writing about the exams and on using literary devices to describe the torture we've been through.

I need to add though, that God's goodness truly saw me through the whole week. I could feel His presence during the papers, that He was there with me. It made things alot better, because it took away my fears. There were many times during the week that I just went into a tyrate like, God, I CANNOT FREAKING DO THIS. It's beyond me, please take control instead. He always did, and things would be much better after that.

Anyway, I went to Yum Cha for breakfast with Mummy and Daddy today! :D It was awesome, the food. What a breather it was after the dreaded week. Oh and, I watched Confessions of a Shopaholic last night. (as you can see my thoughts are very disorganized and they have no sense of chronology) IT WAS TERRIFIC! It was so hilarious I couldn't stop laughing, and again it was the whole fairytale ending that gave it its appeal.

I'm very attracted to fairytale endings.

During cell group today, I laughed so hard that my cheek muscles ached. It was extremely amusing hearing Xiang read out all our strange poems. IT WAS SO FUNNY. I cannot use any other adjective to describe it.

Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy,

I have too many thoughts that I don't want to pen them down so I'll forget it. I'm so strange.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow :) It'll be an awesome day with great company :)

I'm very upset. :(

Tracy, my turtle pouch is missing, perhaps trampled on by various people in a muddy area or abused and neglected by a horrible person. :( To make things worse, my ez-link card and my IC are both in the pouch.

I'm feeling more unsettled with every day that passes, I need to report the loss soon. I'm thinking of going to ICA tomorrow morning and get it done and over with, because if not the only time I can go would be next monday. I don't want to drag it anymore. :(

And Tracy, I'm really sorry for not bothering to bathe you when you were still with me, always assuming that there will always be another day, another chance. I know this sounds juvenile, but she has been with me for a long time.

:(

"You're my exception."



I melted in my seat there and then. I'm such an idealist and romantic when it comes to love that my mum warned me not to allow my notion of love to become bigger than the person in the future. I'm in danger of doing that, I know. Then again it's a pact I've made with myself to not settle for anything less than head-over-heels-in-love, love. Isn't every girl allowed to dream? Then again, I'm so stubbornly idealistic that I'm very insistent on making my dreams materialize.

She was rather shocked when I explained to her my whole notion of love, when I say things like, "Mummy, I'm sure when you meet the love of your life you just know it. You never want to spend the rest of your life with anyone else except him, and growing old together is the best thing that will ever happen to you."

She tried to tell me again not to blow up my notion too much, but then I was too horrified by her realism that I didn't really take it in. It happens to me sometimes. I automatically reject realism.

Anyway, I'm very upset. My dad's arm is injured and out of my horror and anger at his carelessness, I slapped his other arm while he narrated to me what happened. He was rather amused and surprised at the same time. I hate to see him hurt! It's just like how he hates to see me sick. I couldn't help it and reprimanded him.

It will be a long time again before I blog. Oh well, bye :)

I've not been blogging for an unusually long time. Right now I feel like I have tons of thoughts in my head that I need to pen down.

If I ever get to where I want to be in the future, I hope I won't forget I once thought it very daunting to reach there. I don't want to brush the hard work off and say it was a piece of cake, and then take it forgranted. But that is if I ever get there, and if that is where God wants me to be. Strangely, I haven't asked Him about it yet. Perhaps it's because I'm half-afraid it is not what He has in store for me. That the truth would be I'm actually not cut out for it and I won't be happy. I really don't know.

Will I deviate sometime next year, and decide on another course and faculty? That will disappoint me, perhaps not the me then but now. I'm not making sense am i?

This is a fraction of what is on my mind, and I'll go off now.

Argh road run on Friday, when I felt it was all good to have lunch with my sister then catch Benjamin Button. I can't help but cringe at the thought of having to spend my late afternoon running when I don't want to. :(

People nowadays are commenting on how Cat and I look alike. I'm flattered.

That's all I have to say for today. I'm very lazy to blog this year, maybe because I've made a resolution to study hard, and I want to keep to it. I will succeed in becoming a studious nerd this year. I will (with God's help). Okay take away the nerd part, just studious. I will be like the snail who truly crawled with all its might until it reached Noah's Ark. I wish I could give it a pat on its back shell. I will learn from the determined snail.

This post is for Marshmallow and Vivian. (Since Marsh reprimanded me today when I went against my word and didn't blog yesterday)

Anyway, today, Angmian/Marshmallow was eating her sweet during Lit when it fell out of her mouth when she was talking. Vivian and I found it quite amusing. I said I'd blog about it.

Today, I ate this very delicious chocolate muffin that Cat and Dawn baked. It made me happy after Econs lecture. :D

I'm a Navigator for Go Green Day. It was very funny the first time I heard about it, because I thought the whole world ought to know about my poor sense of direction. It turns out that unknowingly, people actually do believe in my sense of direction :D Okay maybe not. But I'm glad Cat's with me if not I may really direct the truck driver to a secluded area where there are no old clothes or newspapers to collect and everyone will really hate me. :(

I'm amazed how alike Cat and I think. It's very comforting to know how someone shares all my sentiments on that issue and we both have the same bag. I know there's no link, I just had to mention the bag.

Okay I'll go off now, byebye :D

HELLO! (:

I haven't blogged in eons, I know. I don't who that enthusiastic Hello is for, probably Angmian, Vivian (who showed me that I haven't blogged for awhile), Bear (do you still come here?), Cat, Zhipeng (who is in army now so he'll only see this post two weeks later) and anyone who reads this blog that I don't know of.

Anyway, tons of things have happened since the last time I blogged almost a month ago. I won't go on about them because there so many things to talk about! I'll just fast forward to today :D

Went to the hairdresser to dye my hair just now. It was a sudden decision because I walked past the salon and it was still open. The hairstylist did temporary curls for me :D I'm quite happy. I look alot older though. But (like Rachel Pink) I've always wanted curls! I've decided not to cut my hair so that it'll be really long by the time I graduate from TJ and then I can do permanent curls. It's quite an amazing feeling because the curls look like they have a life of their own. They bounce and are actually rather cute! I'm talking about them as though they are little children. I tend to do that to quite a few things recently. I keep thinking of Lijia when I'm typing this. I think it's because of her signature permed hair.





















Went to Vivian's house in the afternoon to discuss the Econs project, we managed to finish two (I'll count it as two :D) Econs essay plans though we talked alot. Great catching up though :D With cheeseballs and oreos.

In the afternoon I had lunch with Mummy at Raffles City :) Had good crepes and a nice ice-cream-with-brownie dessert that we shared. I waited for her awhile at Starbucks first because she had a meeting before lunch. I started to read xue shan fei hu while sipping frappucino so it was quite relaxing. Didn't make me feel like I was doing school work at all. If everyday could be like this...

I'll go off now, bye :]

&Angeline

Seventeen years.
TJCian
She's a child of God. It's the best thing that has happened to her.

She loves her family, confidantes and friends alike.



She loves how words can be written to evoke her feelings in an unimaginable way. Music and scents help her remember better. Her feelings and actions contradict each other 68 per cent of the time. She empathises too often, and sympathises most of the time. She can be easily led by her emotions.

She does not usually attempt to describe herself because she's still in the process of self-discovery.

You're God

In the world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.

John 16:33

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